One last Christmas present!

This is the Golf Cart that Ron's Dad got for Anderson. He also got a 4 wheeler for Christmas, and he got a Jeep last year. This kid is only 2 1/2 and already needs a parking garage. hahah

This was waiting on us when we got home from Perryton. Anderson was so excited when we got it all put together. My dad always tells Anderson that he has to charge it to give it some "juice" so Anderson thought he actually had to put JUICE in it to make it run. hahha

...dont you have a life at all?

I was in Perryton for Christmas last week and a bunch of my little brothers friends were out at Rodeo Nights, so Ron and I took him out there and went in to have a drink when I ran into a person I went to HS with. I would have, at one time called him a good friend but I see now that life has taken us on two completely different paths.
I stood there talking to my old friend, it was fun at first then it got a little uncomfortable for me. Here's why.

I live in Shawnee OK which is about 30 miles from OKC. When I was talking with my hs pal, I told him we lived close to the city and he pointed out we should go out one night. I said ya that would be fun. This is where the roads separates us. lol. I was thinking "go out" dinner, catch up maybe a couple drinks after. My friend however started naming off just damn near every bar in OKC asking me if I had been here or there or whatever, and I was like nope never been there.. or I have heard of that place...... for a minute I was back peddling and about to make excuses then I stopped when he said. Damn Mindee don't you have a life.

Don't you have a life??

I just laughed and thought my how the twists and turns of life changes us all, and thank God they do. I do have a life. I don't go party all weekend every weekend, that isn't MY life. My life includes a very active, light hearted 2 1/2 year old and a wonderful husband. My weekends are spent with them! I center everything that I do, around them, and you know what... It works for me. That is just who I am. It doesn't make me right or wrong.. Just different. Yet the same.
When I go to the lake, I pack an ice chest of Capri sun, fruit roll-ups, ham and cheese sandwiches and diet coke (every now and then a 12 pack of Coors) When they go to the lake they pack a change of clothes and 2 or 3 cases of beer (liquid diet). We do the same things, we just do them different.
I am a wife, and mother first and foremost. THAT is my life. I clean and cook and get dirty, and I love every single minute of it. Being parents to our little Anderson is by far the best gift that I have been given we have been given and I know that I am right where I need to be, and that is a good feeling for a person to have.

I hope that all of my friends are doing well and in what ever they are doing they are enjoying it. Whats the point in being alive if you aren't living? Every day is a new day and an adventure for us in this crazy thing we call LIFE!!

To soon to breathe?

We have rented our house now 3 different times and I guess the old saying third times a charm is true, we hope. The first time was to a family members brother who's job cut his pay and he ended up not being able to afford it. Then we got sweet family who was moving here from Texas, they were going to put their daughter into a private school there in Durant. They came and looked at it, filled out the renters application, we approved them. I called and they were about to mail the deposit check when the school called and they found out their daughter didn't get accepted into the private school. Strike two. So we put an add in the paper and have a couple moving in now, we have the deposit in hand. (took two times to learn that you don't hold a property for some one you don't know unless you have a deposit) We are going this weekend to have them sign the contract, and they are due to move in on the 27th. I am not going to count my chickens before they hatch, until they are in and have mailed a month of rent... I am not going to get all happy and think that its finally taken care of. UGH. There are some GREAT benefits of being a landlord, but there are some HUGE draw backs as well.

I am getting to have a sleep over with a friend of mine that I have known FOREVER. Sunnye and I were best buds through high school, and we have managed to stick together! She is in OKC for several days doing IVF and I am so excited to have the opportunity to be a small part of this, and get to see what we are praying is a very successful journey to my friend becoming a mother. She has a very special place in my heart, I am excited to be able to spend an evening with her.

denial

The results are in and while I am still a little shocked by the situation as a whole, the outcome is the best that it could have been, I guess. I have MILD fatty liver disease. Due to my sugars being high for to long, my liver has began to store fat instead of breaking it down and filtering it.

Diet and exercise, how often do you hear that. I am over weight and could stand to loose a few pounds, but come on I'm not just out right FAT. I am mad. Ok. There I said it, I am mad that I am diabetic, and now I am pissed about this liver crap. I am 27 years old. I have (for the most part) lived a pretty healthy life. I just don't know why certain people have certain things happened to them in their life. I know that hind sight is 20/20 and 5 years from now there might be something very important come out of all of this, but for now I want to be able to drink regular Dr. Pepper if I want to, and eat all the ice cream and snow cones in the summer that I want to.
On the other hand.
I WANT to be around to see my son get married and have kids, I WANT to be around to grow old with my husband and enjoy the retirement we are working so hard for now. I WANT to be on this earth for a long long time, so, I will make these changes. I am going to loose some weight, not because I think I need to, but because I have to. I have to many wonderful blessings in my life to sit here and be stubborn and let one more day pass living this unhealthy life style.

Things happen for a reason, this small incident in my life has happened for a reason, God brought me to it, and He is seeing my through it. From here on out I will not be in denial. I will face my health issues and get them under control even if that means being different. I joke with Ron that I am live living with at 70 year old. Really my grandma and I take like 3 of the same medication. BLAH. So, with all that said.
Hello, My name is Mindee ... I am a diabetic.

Anxious..and going for it.

I am treating this like a diary I guess, so for the 4 of you that might actually read this, I will apologize now. haha

I went in today for some blood work, its been 5 weeks since I found out about my "sluggish" liver. I have a doctor appointment Tuesday Nov. 24, my doctor will have my blood work back by then and we should go over it then. To my best understanding: If the liver enzymes are still high, or have gone any higher he will order a biopsy on my liver to give us a clear understanding what is doing it. (Could be a number of things, including my diabetes medication.) For now I am praying that the numbers are lower now and we won't even have to mess with any of that!

Anderson is so excited about Christmas this year, and in turn, that make me even more exciting. My child is very aware of things, more than most 2 year olds I think. He ready for Santa and all the lights, he remembers where we had certain decorations last year in the house and is already asking if we are going to put them in the same spot. It is so fun already, I can only imagine the look on his face as we put up the tree and hang lights! We will be going to my mom and dad's for Christmas this year, and I will have Anderson set out cookies and milk, and carrots and water (you can't forget about the reign deer) and we will make sure Santa can find his stocking easily. Then we will tuck him in and tell him as soon as he wakes up we will come and see what Santa brought him.

I have a lot of "goals" for the new year. 1.I want to start cooking and baking more. I used to hate it, but now I really enjoy getting in the kitchen and trying new things. 2.I want to get a good handle on my diabetes, this includes several small goal wrapped into one. -eating better -working out and -loosing some weight. (After 3 years of having this my doctor ran some test and found that my body reacts well to exercise. I make a TON of insulin but my cells don't respond to it, when I exercise it makes my cell accept the insulin that my body creates.) I was told that if I make exercise a priority, part of who I am that I might..MIGHT be able to get off all medication for diabetes. **So that is my big goal, slim down and eat health in hopes that my diabetes comes full circle and I can get off my medication. 3.Then end of next year we are talking about possibly trying for Duffell #2...

Nothing much..

Where to begin. There hasn't been a lot going on, but its been a while since I got on here so I thought I would take a few minutes and post something.
I have a lot to be thankful for in my life, I have been doing a 30 day thankfulness challenge and it really "does a body good" to get up in the morning and FIND something to be thankful for. It just kind of aligns your mood for the rest of the day. Its day 12 and its getting difficult on one hand, but not so much on the other. I have already been thankful for family-friends-kids-husband-work--- and the rules are that you aren't supposed to repeat yourself, so now its getting hard to FIND something to be thankful for. That is when you just have to look at the easy stuff. I am thankful for my comfy bed, where I look forward to a good nights rest... blah blah blah. The point it I'm thankful.

I know I have complained before about the whole house in Durant thing; the bottom fell out on Tuesday so I thought. The renters that I had lined up for December called and backed out. I freaked, went off the deep end, almost had a panic attack. Then I talked to my oh so level headed husband. Of the 4 followers I have, yall all probably know that I am a bit of a hot head. I am much better than I was in HS, but the unforeseen things sneak up on me sometimes. This is were Ron comes in. See we are really POLAR OPPOSITES on most things. It usually works out for us though, like this.. I freak-- he tells me this :: Mindee, we will find another renter, I know its not FUN paying both morgages, but at least we are able to.. At least it wasn't one of us who got the 15% pay cut (that was the renter excuse) , we will find someone to rent that house, you just need to settle down, its not good for you to get all shook up like that. I cry, he hugs me. End of story, so now I am just waiting for the next renter to come along....

We got family pictures done by a professional last week, I can not tell you how happy I am to have them done! We are giving them out to family at Christmas and I just cant wait to see the look on my families face!!

This weekend we are going to do some HARD CORE potty training. I am combining about 3 different things that I have read about to see if we can get it done. So there you have it. Nothing much going on..just life...

Home Sick

Well my mom and dad were supposed to be coming this weekend, but plans changed and now they aren't. I haven't done this in a long time and I don't know what sparked it last night, but I just bawled like a big ol titty baby after I got off the phone. I was really looking forward to them coming. I thought that I had covered my disappointment pretty well, but my mom called me back twice and my dad called me once.. for small talk. They knew I was upset, which made me feel bad because it wasn't like a big deal or anything, I was just excited. I thought with time that would go away or something but I guess your never to old to be home sick and miss your mom and dad. We are going to get to see them next weekend, which really works out just as well. They are going to see my little brother Ft. Worth. Honestly I am realllllllly excited about this. We haven't seen him in several months, and my son has been asking about Uncle Bake (we are still working on those L's) and Jenn. So I am happy that I will get to see ALL of my family next weekend!!

Anyway, I was just a little overwhelmed by the fact that I cried like a 2 year old last night because I missed my mom and dad... Everything is fine now. Anderson has a Halloween party to go to tonight, and we are excited about that, then TRICK OR TREATING tomorrow...
Then it will be NOVEMBER.. holy cow. Where did this year go??

Time to Wake Up..

I just found out from my doctor that the abnormalities in my blood work is my liver. It isn't functioning the way its supposed to. He didn't say much, just that he is concerned and wants to see me back in 6 weeks were we will do more blood work. I asked him if that comes back the same as the last did, with a slow functioning liver, what will be the course of action? He said that he doesn't want to get into all of that right now, we will just see what the blood work says next week. The thing that he told me that has me really worried is he asked me if I drink a lot. I was like WHAT? I said no, I don't. I told him I do drink on special occasions, but that is just in a social setting. ( I don't even order a drink from a restaurant hardly ever) But that got me think like cirrhorsis (sp) of the liver, I know it does no good to what if, and there is no point in it. I have been diabetic for 3 years now and I guess its time for me to get my act together. I have a husband and a son that need me to stick around for a couple of years.

My uncle recently passed away from diabetic complications at 61, and that is just not long enough for me. I have said this until I am blue in the face, I want to do better. I do. Its just hard when every where you go there is sweets and stuff that I love, I have this thing in my mind about diabetes. I hate it. HATE IT. Its like being part of this big club or something that you just don't care to participate in. Counting calories and carbs -- blah blah blah. This is nothing new and I bet each person that might read this or that I might tell about it knows at least 2 people that have diabetes also. So why am I being a baby about it. I don't know, why cant I get all of this down? I don't know...

I just want to be normal. Now that I am done whining, I will see what happens in the six weeks, but for now, I am going to try to make it better and start to undo whatever damage it is that has been done. I have a good, compassionate doctor and I am trying to get control mentally. So this is a new journey, here we go.

GNO

Last night I had the pleasure of going out with several of the girls that I work with. I was one of their birthday's, so we thought it would be a good chance to escape the pressure of work and motherhood and our wifely duties to have a nice dinner and a couple drinks. We laughed and cut up until almost 9 (I know right, we are rebels) then went home. It was so fun we decided to try to start doing it once a month.. So that is on the books, we are hoping to squeeze in a little GNO every now and then!
The girl that I share my office with lost her mother about 2 months ago. She was in the middle of moving into a new house and selling some lake property when she passed, so she didn't really slow down enough to process what all happened. She had encountered some rather rough times the past couple of weeks and I think its all stemming from the loss of her mom. I got an opportunity to talk with her about it this morning and I just feel terrible for her. She is an amazing woman who usually is the rock of her husband and son both, and now that she is needing some support and emotional guidance, they are at a loss and question every move she makes, and she is at a loss because her support is no longer around. I pray for her. That God will ease this pain and that he will help those around her not only learn to be there for her, but allow her the time that she needs to grieve this great loss. There is not right or wrong way to grieve, the point is that you have to! I am thankful to have family that is supportive and allows me to lean on them when I need to!

Finally.. No where to go and nothing to do... YES PLEASE!

We have been so busy here lately with the rent house and getting it up and ready to sell that I have really been looking forward to a weekend with my boys where we could go and do what we want when we want. So today is Friday and yes it is finally here. I am thinking that we might venture into OKC and take Anderson to the water park and let him play, but again nothing for sure. We've not been out in the boat for a couple weeks now, so we might just do a lake day. Anyway I dont have a lot going on, the pending sale of our house depends on our vacation, so we are patiently waiting to see what is going to happen there. We are still debating about acutally putting it on the market, or just keeping it for sale by owner... who knows!!
Anyway for now that is it, its 9Am and all I can think about is how excited I am to get up in the moring and make pancakes and bacon for the boys. (I am getting pretty good at my "pancake bears" for Anderson! My nanny would be proud, of course they arent anywhere as good as hers.

Monday monday.. cant trust that day.

Well, let's see. We had a balls to wall type of weekend. We are trying to sell some rental property that we own, so we spent the weekend in Durant giving the house a face lift as one Realtor called it. haha Anyway, I was soo tired and ready to get home, but after spending 3 days there I came home only to find that I still had a crap load of stuff to do here. Luckily I got a little burst of energy and so did Ron, so when we got back to the house around 5, he got out the mower and weed eater and took care of the yard while I rustled with the inside a little. We all went to bed and got up for a normal Monday. Anderson off to Nanny's, and Ron and I off to work. There wasn't really anything exciting going on today, with Anderson ever day there is something new... he was off his routine because we stayed with the in laws this weekend and he loves to play with mattmatt and unka (Matthew and Micah) so tonight he went to bed on time and Ron and I are just enjoying some us time.. watching baseball. How romantic right. hahha Its nice to just know that our little one is all snug in bed resting and we can still spend some time together. I don't really know what the week has in store for us, this is going to be a busy month and come September, I am sooo going to be ready for a vacation! Anyway, where ever you are, whatever you may be doing.. I hope this finds you safe happy and healthy.. until next time. Good night and God Bless.

I Frowed it away.

I have posted some of this on facebook, but my friend just got into blogging so I thought I would give it a try as well. I guess I should begin by saying that I was having some attachment issues when it came to my son. I was really holding on to a couple of things that in my mind still made him my baby. The biggest one is the bink. I guess it was a guilty pleasure that I hung on to because 2 of my favorite times of day was when Anderson would go to be and I would cuddle with him while he fell asleep and then get to just look at him and all the little boy faded and he was momma's baby. So every time we talked about taking it away, I had a reason why this was not a good time.
The other night I was in the tub and he Anderson came in and told me that he needed to go potty, he wanted some candy. I yelled at Ron, who came in put him on the potty, he pee peed and got his candy and we all yelled and hollered and jumped up and down.. he even clapped for himself for doing so well. The next day at his Nanny and PaPa's house, he pottied 6 times in the potty and when I came in the door to pick him up, he was screaming I go potty... I get candy... I wear big boy pants (pull ups) He was so proud of himself I almost started to cry.
With all this big boy talk I figured it was time for me to look at who really was "needing" the bink. I decided that we would talk about doing away with it over at Nanny's that night and we could all come up with something together. (I try to include them as much as possible on big things like that because they keep him during the day and I do everything I can to make is easy on them) So we all agree that it would be best just to go cold turkey, and Ron brought up starting that night. All the sudden I am stuttering and cant talk and my hands are sweating... I think OH CRAP. Tonight, I was like gearing up thinking we would start on a weekend or something, it never crossed my mind to start tonight. Well Nanny jumped right on that boat so we did. The first night he asked about at least 15 times, even named the color... I want the orange bink... we would say, we lost it.. We don't know where it went. Then he would say, ummm how bout blue. I want the blue bink. (I think to myself, ok if they can name the color of the bink they want maybe it is time.) We continue to tell him it is lost. He goes to bed fine that night, the next morning he cries for about 2 minutes then realized it was raining outside and was on to talking about how wet it is, it rainin hawd.. things of this nature. Did great at Nanny's went right down for a nap without the bink only to ask one time if was still "lost." Well last night his 2 uncles were in town so he didnt even think about it. He woke up this morning, which yesterday was the only time he cried for it, so I was prepared; but he sat up and said.. no bink? I said no baby, no bink. Remember, we lost it? He said nope. No bink. I frowed it away. I was trying to find an answer.. and then he said.. Matt-Matt and Unka still here? I was like yes... and he crawled down to go play. So that is the not so traumatic story of the end of the bink and the beginning of the big boy days!!!