Now I lay me down to sleep...

I pretty much cried myself to sleep last night thinking and praying for a little girl I have never met and her family. I have been so touched by this families story it has given me a new lease on life, love, family, and made me take a second look at myself. Sometime, well more than sometimes I like to keep my family bubble. I want to keep all the bad things in the world out, not that by any means does this mean that we are ignorant or oblivious to what is going on; rather we choose to not fill out heads with it. It is hard to be a glass half full kind of person in these days and ages, I like to think that is how I view life and I want Anderson to grow up in a positive, encouraging environment. ....I want Anderson to grow up...
You don't think it will happen to you, to your best friend, your neighbor but it does. God sometimes for reasons that we might not know or understand calls one of his precious babies home earlier than what we feel is necessary.
The pain and agony Layla has gone through is beyond me, I can't for the life of me imagine having watch my baby go through any of that. The pain that her family is feeling... makes it hard for me to breath. Layla reached more people and touched more peoples hearts in her short 2 years than most of us do in a life time, that's a God thing. What Layla, and her family have done for me is humbled me. Made me seek out the good, because as bad as I think it might be - its not.

When I go home tonight, I will hug Ron and Anderson a little tighter, tell them I love them way to many times, be more patient with my full of life 3 year old, sit back and watch the 2 people that mean the most to me in this world and pray that God will allow me another day and another breath to breathe and do it all over again. You truly never know when the good Lord will call you home.

I pray for Layla and her family.. I pray that God wraps his big arms around her and takes her pain and suffering away and lets her rest peacefully. Amen.

Stars on the river
Stars in the sky
Stars that are falling
Stars burning bright
Stars disappearing
Stars come to light out of the dark

I see stars in every headlight
And I wonder where they go
I see stars that are stranded by the side of the road
I see stars that look like raindrops sticking to the hood of my car
I'm seeing stars

Wishing on stars
Only when you see 'em
Is like asking God for help
Only when you need it
But I'm wishing anyway
I'm wishing anyway
Wishing on stars
Only when you see 'em
Is like asking God for help
Only when you need it
But I'm wishing anyway
I'm wishing anyway

Tonight there's stars on the river
Stars in the sky
Stars that are faded like the stars in her eyes
One lonely tear drop
One long goodbye
Hit me hard
I'm seeing stars

Wishing on stars
Only when you see 'em
Is like asking God for help
Only when you need it
But I'm wishing anyway
I'm wishing anyway

I'm seeing stars
I'm seeing stars
(Stars on the river, stars in the sky)
I'm seeing stars
(Stars that are faded, stars in her eyes, I'm seeing stars)